Hey everyone :) you can all expect a much awaited post (just by Stephy G O) on my birthday party in a few hours :)
Challenge 8 is talking about my dreams/wishes/hopes.
Honestly, I find this so stupid. I think wondering about dreams and wishes and all that is pointless. Investing your time, trying to find a dream job, a dream house, family, life, just subtracts time from thinking about what matters now.
We all have the highest expectations, and no matter how hard we all try, these expectations drown in the bitter taste that is reality. These hopes are bound to disappoint us when the time comes. All we have ever wished for in the past will slowly disintegrate when we start to realise there is no way in hell we could achieve that. Ever.
I can't help but think about it though, after everything I just said, I go and contradict myself by getting bored in class and wondering about the future.
I dream of a perfect husband. Someone to look after me, who would listen voluntarily to everything I have to say (which is a lot), but at the same time, drag me back down to earth, he wouldn't hide his feelings from me, he has to cuddle, compliment me, make me feel special. He needs to know how to joke around. I love funny guys. He needs to have fun, do things that make him happy, someone spontaneously romantic. I dream of a perfect job, where the money rolls in and I actually enjoy whatever I'm doing.
I haven't thought of anything more, because I only ever get this far, every time I do catch myself thinking about the future, I stop. Because I know I can never find a guy like that who isn't a lead role in a book or movie. I know that there is no way I can be good enough to do something I enjoy. and i don't want to set myself up for disappointment.
Thanhy xoxo
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