30 DAY CHALLENGE - CHALLENGE 19 AND 20

Hey everyone :) Sorry I didn't do yesterday :( but it was what I was wearing.

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20:

The person I trust the most.

To outsiders, it seems crazy that I trust her so much. I'm sure so many people would never expect me to say who I am talking about and I can see where everyone is coming from. We might look like we act terribly towards one another, that we hate each other sometimes, that I tell her nothing. but that's all false. What everyone believes our relationship to be like, that impression is wrong. No one can understand it, but it happens. I can barely understand how it works myself, it just does.

She's been here for my whole life basically. And I'm hoping she'll stay with me for the rest. She used to be the one I would tell my day's stories to. We would have these amazing, intense D and M's where we told each other everything that has happened. She used to be the one I would tell the absolute truth of how I was feeling. And even if I didn't, she would know anyways. She used to be the I would go to for advice. Because she knew everything and how to fix everything.

Notice how I said "She used to be" And it saddens me that I say it, but it is the truth. It's the truth that she was and is not anymore. And though I want her to still be these things for me, she isn't because I can't bring myself to tell her of all my faults and shames. I know she would never judge me, but I would. 

And though she isn't those things for me anymore, I still write about her here because I still trust her. And she is the person I trust the most, in all my life, I have never met someone I trusted more than I trust her. 

Thanhy xoxo