TIRED

I feel as though I'm constantly being watched by someone, anyone, just waiting to see if I make a mistake or not. I can't think without fear of thinking my thoughts are false and I can't sleep until I count all the things that I left undone. The days are long and exhausting and I shudder to think of what will become of me in two years time if I'm this tired this early. 

I'm trying so hard and my attempts are pitiful.