1. I'm sorry for being unsupportive when you told me secret desires. I regret that I scorned you and let you wither instead of urging you along and helping you grow.
2. I'm sorry for being a bad friend to you all at times when you have each been so good to me regardless of whether I deserved it or not. Thank you and I love you girls.
3. I'm sorry for pushing you away. Our friendship obviously meant so much to you and I put my own selfish wishes before the existence of us.
4. I'm sorry for shouting at you and at times, feeling as though I hate you. Of all these things, I love you so much and my life is nothing without you. You've taught me so much without even uttering a word.
5. I'm sorry for leaving my dirty dishes in the sink and expecting you to wash them. I'm sorry for not helping more because you nurtured me and you've been there since forever and I owe you so much for loving me.
6. I'm sorry for hating the way you shouted. I realise now that you are the person that has had the biggest impact on me and am so grateful for everything you give me. I'm sorry that I don't express my love for you more.
7. I'm sorry for feeling inadequate around you and thinking that I must impress you when all along, I should've realised that you weren't worth impressing.
8. I'm sorry for not being the role model I should be and I'm sorry for laughing at your trivial problems. You remind me too much of myself sometimes and I hate that but I'm sorry and I love you.
9. I'm sorry for feeling resentful of your success. I am so happy for you and I have no right to feel this little green eyed monster inside of me.
10. I'm sorry for choosing the wrong decisions. I should've made my meaning clearer. And while we were both young, I can't help but regret it every time I see you.
11. I'm sorry for hating you when you hated me. You had every right to hate me and I had none to hate you.
12. I'm sorry that you have to go through all this. If it were possible, I would live your life just so you wouldn't have to, because you are so good and don't deserve this, I'm sorry.
13. I'm sorry that you lost your place in my life for a bit and am doing everything I can to change that. Thank you for my second chances and your eternal love.
And while these sorries took so long to write and caused so much heart ache, they mean absolutely nothing because I don't have the guts to really apologise for these things. I'm a coward and I'm sorry for that.
With a heavy heart,
Thanhy xoxo
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