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And then there are days when you just want to fall asleep. It is your only escape. 

I used to be that girl who would stay up all night, not partying, not laughing, just up. I would be that girl whose name pops into the online bar on facebook, or that girl who would have a little green tick next to her skype. You brought out that girl in me. 

At first, I did it because I didn't want to think. Too many people in this world have thought too much and I would rather not be one of them. I like to think of unrealistic dreams and unattainable standards and I didn't want to do that to myself. Those thoughts, my thoughts, they let me drown in the bitter taste that is reality. 

Then, the reason I would go to bed at 3 every morning was because I had to. Sometimes, late at night, I would lie in bed thinking. I lay there while the rest of the world fell asleep. I listen to the sound of my heartbeat, the sound of my blood running through my veins. I did it often. I did it just to see each hour past on the tick tock clock. 12. 1. 2. 3. Let's sleep. 

Then you came and we would laugh and talk and reminisce about the good times.
And I liked that.
And I can't wait for that time to come again.
It's routine. 
And you promised. 

With memories,

Thanhy xoxo