LETTERS TO YOU

To Someone I Miss,




I miss you and you dont know how much. You put a barrier between us and so did I and that makes me sad. I knew you so well and now its nothing. Nothing at all. I miss you. Thats all.


I pushed you out of my life because I was too busy. I dont know what I was busy doing or why I even used that excuse, but I did. I said I was too busy for you, my very close friend. If it were a perfect world, I would go back in time and say I was sorry. If it were a perfect world, I would never have tried to let you leave my life. If it were a perfect world, this never was going to happen. But it,s not a perfect world and I can't go back in time and relive it. Don't you wish we could just talk? Talk without having a fight like we always did? Talk like we didn't have a care in the world? I wish we could've. I wish for impossible things.


We were so close. you knew everything about me. From my obsession with headbands to my phobia of heights. You knew me when we were 5 and you invited me to your birthday party. You knew me when we were 10 and i thought you were the best artist in the world. You knew me when we were 12 when I stayed up talking to you. I dont know you now. I dont know your favourite colour, I dont know what you like to eat, I dont know where you are, what you do or even who you are. Do you know me? Do you want to? Do you even care that we havent talked in so long? I hope you do because i do. I miss your smile, the way you always said bye with 'love you'. I miss the times where we would just laugh because we wanted to. And now I dont remember the last time you said hi to me.


I miss you so much. I miss you when I'm in class, remembering the time we used to copy off each other. I miss you when I'm eating my lunch, remembering the time you used to share your lunch with  me when I was hungry. i miss you when I'm on facebook, remembering the times we talked till late. I miss you when I go to sleep, praying for you safety, happiness, praying that you will go home one day and remember me. I pray that you will remember my voice, my smile, the fact I considered you as my best friend. 


I miss you. Thats all.


Love, 
           Me . xoxo